KSL

KSL is the initial of my grandfather name.

Grandpa passed away last year February. We the cool family was kind of expected this. I was in Singapore that day. Trying to get an early nap after my breakfast, however birds were chipping outside very loud. Then I decided to turn on my phone, message received from my sister about grandpa.

My head was empty, until I received the call from my family. I booked the flight back to Penang @ evening time. I cried in the bathroom, think about the last meet up with my grandpa.

Once I touched down, ah Kong (grandpa in hokkien) was in the coffin. And due the hokkien tradition, I need to crawl in and cry “I’m back to see you, ah Kong”. I cannot believe that I can hold my tears that particular moment. I cried again when I reach home after the ceremony. The wake was 5 days.

I’m going to skip .. as I’m crying right now...

Reason of crying mainly due to, I was with him from kindergaden till primary school. He was the one accompany me to school on Saturday, wait with me for school bus. And all the handcraft stuff in school made by him for me. Told my mom, I’m about to increase his monthly allowance but he no longer around. I feel what a waste his life, didn’t really get to enjoy.

His leaving was like minus one person that loves me truly. I'm missing him, and I know he knew it.

I’m fine and I will take good care of myself. Don’t worry.

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