The Beatles - I want to hold your Hand

lets start all over again sunday

Time to start all over again...
Bad times... forget about it...
Searching and giving myself only the good time...

Because I deserve the best treatment...
I deserve the good things...

Waste no time on those stupid dumbasses...
Time is for me...
Relax... take it easy...enjoy... deep breath... see the beauty things...

I want to be happier...!!!
From current happy + more excitement and happy things!!!

the sunday before the bday

Getting old... every single day...
Had Japanese lunch with S...
Mmm... Giving 7 out 10 to the lunch...

Bought myself some facial things...
And prepare myself for wine and cake 2night...
And the sky loves me as well... little rain no sun... the weather that I like...

wow... everything seem nice...
I just want to relax and...

Hoping for the best and all lucky charm will come to me for the rest of my life...
Cute + humble + smile + lucky >>> JK

Happy birthday to the 25 JK

meh sunday

I hurt my back this week...
Go to doc... Is about flat back bone issue...
Getting better after the therapy...

And 2012 is showing... plan to watch on Tuesday...

New job... is some sort overloaded...
No stress... just annoy due to the mess left over by others from last quarter...
What I can say is... this is life... and deals with it...

I need to make sure ... work and life is balance...
Will stop @ 1830 sharp... no more work till 1900 / 2000...
Start @ 0900 and end on time...

Need to make sure efficiency of my work... fast, accurate and on time...

And next week we will know who the new ANTM cycle 13///is
I want Nicole to win...!!!

back to basic sunday...

Yup... back to basic...
Will have a lot of workload starting 2mr...
I wish the busy work will keep me away from those stupid things... that keep on bugging me since last night...

One sentence... that needs to keep on my mind...
"Let it be"
No matter what happen... I still have me...
And I need to focus... stay focus...

Like ah bia said... you need to meet those loserSsss... and then hit the quota... and finally you will meet the right one... hahaha

I need motivation!!! I need strength... to fight the competitor... which is myself...

JK>>> the one and only...

adios

thinking too much again...

Start work this week...
Feeling... some sort ok...
Maybe busy in work... will help me to forget the bad things... I don’t know...

I’m thinking way too much again...
This is so me... this is life maybe...
But I don’t want my life end this way...
Alone for the rest of my life... I get panic when I think of it...
No doubt... I love my life... but I want someone to accompany me as well...
maybe my life determine to be single... and maybe when time pass... I will get use to it... who know... laugh at myself... just a silly me...

So typical JK...

Night... winks

brand new sunday

Attend a seminar today...
And learn new things...

And 2mr I start my new job...
Life move on... no matter what happen...
Hope to wow... those people...
wakakkaka...

Keep on reminding myself... everyday is a brand new days... all the beautiful things will come to me...

And I kinda miss you...

everything will not be the same anymore///

Feeling sick... a little bit of fever...
Ate only an apple for dinner...

Time changes everything... I need to change...
To become myself... not other... just be yourself
Thinking way too much... recently... I need to calm down... and learn "let it be"

Let it be... oh let it be... wakkakaaka
Let have all the good things come to me...
And hug me even tight this time...

Smile... from within my heart...
See... every good thing around me...
Smell... the nature of the beauty...

Being myself... is the greatest things that ever happen...
I’m JK...

adios :)

tiring monday

Freaking tired..............................................
And sleepy...
I will sleep very the soon... and I'm hungry now... has pear as supper...

This time I’m waiting for the LO///
Tired... waiting is tired...

Met someone new yesterday...
Hope to know you more...
Time for me to go out to date...

Zzzz time... adios

changing sunday

Yup...
Time to change...
I have accepted the offer...
Will start to work soon...
And Nov... will be a big spending month...
renew car insurance... road tax... car loan... speeding charges...
OMFG... about RM 2k...

I need cash>>>$$$

P/s: continuously remind myself... everyday is a brand new day... everyday is the beginning of my life...

be strong!!!

I know you are tired...
But tired is not an excuse for you to stop learning...

I know you want to cry...
But crying... cannot solve anything... you still need to face it...

I know you feel defeat...
I believe you still have the power to fight back...

This is you... the one that never give up...

continue to wait tuesday

received the call...
and will continue to wait for another one or two days... to know the offer...

tired... really tired...
waiting is tired...

why people do things slow...?
is because they are slow in nature...
wakakakaka

new drama series from TVB...
watch it!!!
is awesome

the secret

the secret to me... everyday is the start of my new life...
i will learn to appreaciate... to love my life!!!

another waiting sunday

Yup...
This round is to wait for the HR to call me up... to discuss about the package...

So tired of waiting...
Why can't people do things faster?
I don't like to wait... seem like your life is in other people hand...
Dang it...

have been watching a lot of American’s drama lately... from desperate housewives, criminal mind, brothers and sisters, the modern family, cougar town, the vampires diaries, Melrose place.... to ANTM cycle 13...

I would say that... brothers and sisters and Melrose place is by far the best now...
And my eyes are full with tears when I watch B&S episode 2 and 3... Where Kitty found out she has cancer... gosh...

2mr... time to wait again...

meh

Meh meh meh... meh mood...

Still in the process... of learning...
Learn to be more patient...
Learn to trust my own judgment...
Learn to believe in myself...

There was no news yet for the job I apply...
And I’m waiting... for the good news...

Life... is about getting yourself busy...
And relax on the weekend...

This is how it’s going to work...
Live your life... with all your heart...

P/s: MELROSE PLACE is awesome!!!
Check the preview below!!!

move on sunday

Time flies...
Time move on from this stage to another stage... of life...

I have been on the top of the world... once or twice or three times...
And falling into the deepest ground...
This is life... I know that... but when you are falling... your mind can't think properly...

I’m over it now... time to shine again... this is the real me...

The one that are famous... and being talk about by others...
this is me... I rather people talk about me... than being the one that sit @ the corner... that no one will notice...
Wakakaka... (For ah bia)

2mr ... time to know the answer...
I want so badly...
and I will be sad if I didn’t get it...

anyway... positive thinking... I what I need...

Adios...

alone and stress...

Not working for the past 4 months...
3 months doing the thesis...
1 month rest, relax, learn something new...

Time to put everything down...
Time to find a career... yup a career... not job...
Previously the 1st and 2nd work... I see it as a job... people paid you money... you work... you want more money... you work harder...

This time... I’m looking for a career... seeking continues development on me...
Seeking growth in me... seeking money... and seeking satisfaction...

Time flies... like no one else...
I want to catch it... like I can...

At the end...
All I have is me...
I need to be strong... stronger... than anybody else...
This is me JK...

seeking

Everybody is seeking for something...
Those... who did not seek for anything...
Is giving up his life...

I’m seeking for something...
Something that can make me feels secure...
Giving myself 3 years time...
I believe I will have it...

thinking too much sunday

I had some interviews last week...
Mmm...
Hope to get the job that I want...
And with a good pay...
@ This point of time... I mean my age...
I see things different...
Previously I just look for a job... people paid you... you work... if you want more money... work harder...

now... I see it as a career... going to work with joy... back to home with satisfaction... I want to grow... continue improvement... this is the things I seek in the new career...

P/s: good luck to me... for getting the job I want...

bird... a mean one... a real bitch...

Hola...
Writing this post is meant to warn people... do not trust those who smile @ you until you really know them...

Bird eventually is so call a trainer in an IT hardware company... (A lousy 1)
I met her... yes is a she... when I join the company once I complete my advanced diploma...
she was like a so call... trainer that help to coach people that is new / those people that did not perform... but... her performance should be the one that need to be coach... and her attitude need to get a SLAP on her face...

Enough description about the bird...
Lets talks about the bad things she do...
1) Promise to help to convert me to perm N times... if I hit the number... (I hit numerous times)... which she fail to do so... (She is a failure)
2) Backstabbing bitch... she fail to become a team lead... and then roti came in... where she bitching about me... taking too much leave... or late... which lead me cant convert to perm... until I pull out all the calendar... to prove that... I’m taking leave according to the company standard... and pull out the time that show I was on time when I work...

I’m too lazy to type...
If anyone that would like to know about this bird... ask those who have under her before...
Like KB... sandy... HP... And others that know her... about the shit things she does...

As the conclusion... I just don’t like her... she is the Fakest people I ever met in my career life...

A sign board needs to place beside her…
BEWARE!!! Fake bird inside!!!

all i have is...

All I have is me...
I have nothing else... but me...
I’m still holding on... for myself... not others...
All by myself... holding on to my dreams

Everybody is shitting all the stuff about me...
I don’t give it a damn...
They said I'm crazy...
I really don’t care...

flash back sunday

Flash back...
To the time that I just finished my SPM...
And decided to study @ TARC... even I don’t have the money...

Work as part-timer @ department store...
Earning $3.80 per hour... (I’m the highest part timer @ gent floor, other like $2.80/ $3.00/ $3.20 etc) wakakka
Earning about 1k per month... and I survive for the 8k study fees (2 yrs) and living expenses...
1k per month means that I work like 230 hours a month + $100 commission...
Yup... I don’t have off day...
Back from college @ 5pm... Then rush for dinner and shower... and start walking to the department store and work @ 7pm///until 10pm
Then start all over again... study @ 8am... (Walk to take bus)
This is my life... year 2002 till 2003

Hohoho... I need to remind myself... anything can be done if you have the determination and strength...

I love myself more than anyone else...
This is the real me... the one that believe in himself...

why

Why I keep on thinking about someone that doesn't give a shit of me...
Maybe this is me... the one that full with LOVE... passion... and everything nice...
Kiss my ass... wakakakakaka... dang you... for haunting me...
I need to learn to forget and forgive...

I need good food... I need good rest... I need to learn...
Continue learning... is the way to keep my life interesting...
Learning is another way to keep my brain function...

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

learning to trust myself and be patient

Started to trade in live account...in a very the small amount...
And is nerve racking...
Lose some win some... overall... still the same...
Eventually should be winning... but due to I’m easily get nervous...
And not too trust my own judgment... I close the trade earlier... which suppose to hit my TP point... dang it...
I still need to learn... and I love it...

Be patient... be serious...trust myself...

me, myself and I

I’m full with food now... which I shouldn't eat...
Anyway... life is about doing the things that unpredictable...

I’m giving myself stress lately...
Without stress a human can't perform well...
Stress is a way to make human become better...
I want to become better... as a human being...

Human want to change their life...
Because they are not satisfied with their current one... unless they know how to thanks their life... (Thankful)
They want to improve their living... society status...etc
This is human... this is me as well... I love my life but I want to change it to become better…

I want to change... because I know... I deserve it... the better life...
This is me...

time....

Time flies... like no other...
I saw some photos of my primary school friends...
Damn scary...
Everyone change... and some I do not recognized...
Omg... time doesn’t wait for anyone...

I have been wasting my time for the past 3 weeks...
Time to plan ahead...
Time to go back to the original JK... the one that PLAN ahead...
No time should be waste anymore...
No time should be waste to look for someone that doesn’t exist...
No time should be waste to hang around...
No time should be waste to look for love...
This is me... the one and only JK...

after u... biatch

Nothing related to the title... haha

Just have some thought about the marital status again...
Do I really care whether I get attached or not...?
The answer is NO... hell no...
I'm OK when I'm single...
Better to be single instead meeting those freak / LOSER!!!

Ah BIA... the "ang mo's gf" (wakakaka, I'm so good @ it"
Told me... people need to meet a certain LOSER / freak quota before they meet the right one...
Mmm... Some sort agreed... some sort doesn't...
For example, some people... who met those freak... they are like... okay... just continue it... he might be the last one that like me... WTF...
I saw lots of example... not going to list it out...

Another thing that I need to learn is... n o no for fast food... fast fall in and fast to end...
Hahaaha... the instant noodles... dang off!!!

SS501 - ur man

the music make me wanna dance...
wow...

wakakakaka

alil said my blog tukau...
so... the dirty words... will come out less from my mouth... and the blog...
wakakakaka

so hippie mood... today.. after the tea break with friends... maybe is the caffeine problem...
wow... I'm high...

fabulous...I'm totally a freak...
why everybody talking all the stuff about me...
i don't really care... from Britney spears...
wakakakakak

i think today i will cry alone in my bed... desperately...
wakakakakakaka...
or maybe i should go to the pesta... dang them all...

single / in a relationship / rather not to say / its complicated / marry / etc etc

Marital status for person determines one's lifestyle...
Being a human... for 25 years (almost)...
Suddenly think that single is the way for me... the lifestyle...
Hurray... have decided to be single... (For the moment)
wakkakaka...

hi alil... yeah single!!! SINGLE... rather be single than meeting those LOSERS
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...
hahhaha
I don’t know... maybe I don’t belong to a relationship...
Because... the person that I care the most is... me, myself and I... I’m here for myself only...
OMG>>> I’m selfish... I just love me... more than anybody else...

Wow... is the time to have a party for SINGLE...
Fuck those LOSERS no time...
CCB...LC>>>
CBL>>>
kiong pu...
kiong kan...
LCL...
asshole...
Pervert...

Omg... so high now...
Want to scream out loud those dirty words>>>>>>>>>>>
Dang it...

how to meet the right one?!

Yes ... as per the title... HOW to meet the right one in your life?
I have no idea...
Eventually alil have...
"She wants to let things flow naturally... because she rather single instead meeting someone that is not the right one..."

For me...I don’t think I will meet the right one... in my life...
So/// if someone dates me... I will go... to have fun... enjoy the life...
Ya, this is life...enjoys the fun and be happy...
And FUCK those asshole no time...
wakakaka

Planning to go to the pesta beside QB mall this week...
To have some fun time...
I’m still a youngster... with a children heart...
This is me... JK

omg... this is the actual #100...

Wakakakaka...
Good mood today... cut my hair...
And had famous wantan mee from tai gu ow road...
And then high tea with May and Eugene...
Now... I feel sleepy...

Can’t wait for 2mr...
ANTM cycle 13 epi 3 + Melrose place epi 2 + the beautiful life epi 1
Gosh... so excited...

Happy!!!

P/s: i'm waiting for the UK office to approve my application for forex.com... so damn slow...

post # 100 = silly me

Oh my god...
I did something that never happens since kinder school...
poo poo in my underwear...
-.-lll

I had dinner with KB @ tom yam seng restaurant...
Then I fart @ room... and the poo poo came out... (Unconsciously)
Wakakaka...

By the way this is blog post # 100...
Clap hand please...

poopoo 100
Yeah

meh meh meh

Meh mood lately...
Feeling... not motivated...
Gosh... I’m so moody...

Plan to cut my hair 2mr...
Then have some nice lunch... just want to pamper myself...
And then clean up my room...

Need to punch anyone to release some tension in me...
Life... oh life...

relax

awesome sunday...
doing nothing... tv and newspaper... and siesta in the noon...
good...

will be doing back testing later till night time...
and awaiting for my McD for linner...

feeling a bit cold now... maybe is going to rain soon...
life is so unpredictable... follow your heart... and be happy...

smile from within

Have been busy lately...
Doing back testing and some demo trade...
Decided to go on live by next week...

Happy mood...
When your life is without stress...

And ANTM cycle 13... is pretty good... those SHORT girls... do take some good photo...and next week is nude photo shot with horse... better watch it out!!!

And I watch WHERE GOT GHOST? Today... is an awesome Singapore movie...
I'm giving it 10 over 10 rating~~~

And I’m waiting for my wonderful breakfast 2mr morning...
dim sum... and McD spicy chicken mcdeluxe as LINNER (lunch + dinner) new word... wakakaka

P/s: smile everyday... and telling myself... I'm beautiful every single day...


below is where got ghost trailer...

life is short

life is short, nobody has the right to tell you how to live your life.
do the things that you want and be happy...
reject those invitation that you don't want to go...
stay away from negative people...
be yourself

I love life... I love my life as JK... the one and only JK...

hahaha...
feeling great and happy...

sunny SUNDAY

The 3 days course over...
I'm happy I learn new things there...
And realize that... life is about doing things that make yourself happy...

Tonight will start my back testing for 2 hours... then 2mr start the demo trade...
Life great when you do the things you want...

P/s: ANTM cycle 13 premieres this coming wed... check it out... this time all girls are below 5'7... all is shorty...

second day of the seminar...

i'm exhausted...
from 0830 till 2230...
wow... its like working an OT>>> but is fun...

learn something that I like... and I was happy that I took this course...
but I need some time to do back testing... and practice in demo account...
then only into come into action...

other people... that don't like what I'm doing... SHUT UR FUCKING MOUTH!!!
I'm not spend ur $$$... this is MY LIFE>>> I want to live MY WAY!!!

1st day of the seminar

One word...
TIRED...

Slept @ 10pm yesterday night... wake up @ 12am then sleep again @ 2am...
Wake up @ 7am... then the seminar @ 830am...

The speaker is quite good...
But I still need to read some of the notes tonight...
So that I can ask something that I still don't understand 2mr morning...

I need to learn as much as I can...!!!

get it on

Yes... the plan starts 2mr...
Freaking clueless... for 2day...

Need to empty my head... so that 2mr course will absorb as many things as I can///
jia you!!!
I cannot lose focus now...
I need to focus... and do it... like a pro...

on track...

Signed up the course...
Will be on course this coming 3rd till 5th...
Will equip myself with all the knowledge / strategy / etc...
Fill up my empty brain...

The nerve is going away...
I’m just too nervous when I need to spend this amount of money nia...
But feeling great ... I can learn the things I want...

Scream my lung out!!!
“I want to be successful!!!”

nervous

Getting nervous...
When it was June... I can’t wait for this Sept...

Calculate how much I spend from June till now...
Spend 2k for a NB, 3 months of car installment 1.5k, and some other stuff...
I believe I spent more than 4.5k within 3 months...
A big spender award giving to me... blek...

The course starts on 3rd Sept...
Preparing myself... to absorb as many as I can... the knowledge...

This time I will go for it 110%...
I will make it happen...
gambatea!!!!!!!!

sunshine after the rain (sunday)

Rain for a few days ... over here in Penang...
Cold... and scare... is haunting me...

Cold because of the weather...
Scare because the time is clicking too fast... Sept is coming... the time for me to move on is coming...

No more cold... because the sun have appear
No more scare... because I want to know how far I can go

Ya... will go for the plan I have been waiting for so long...
And prove it... I will shine again... even brighter than before...

This is me... the one and only JK

simple

Sometime a simple thing is the happiness of a human being...
I wish I was simple enough... so that I can enjoy the happiness of a simple person...

Too bad... I’m not that simple...
I have my ambition... I have the fighter personality... fight for better life...
This is why I can't be simple...

I can do it... if I want to

sorry sorry by super junior

i like the song...
anyone have the mp3?

the 3's of JK

Three jobs I have had in my life.
1. Promoter
2. Telesales
3. Outdoor sales

Three places I have lived
1. Penang
2. Kuala Lumpur
3. Penang

Three Favorite drinks
1. Water
2. Alcohol
3. 100 plus

Three TV shows that I watch
1. America's Next Top Model/ AusNTM/ CNTM
2. Desperate Housewives
3. Kang Xi Lai le

Three Places I Have Been
1. Singapore
2. Phuket
3. Tokai

Three people who e-mail me regularly
1. KB
2. Sandy
3. Mag

Three of my favorite restaurants
1. Japanese Food (Kampachi/ Tao)
2. McD (spicy chicken Mc Deluxe ---> when I’m down)
3. Seafood (Tambum/ Hao You)

Three things I'm looking forward to
1. Become a Millionaire by age 30 and retire
2. Own a restaurant
3. Perform in a porn movie...

wakakaka...

siesta

Trying to change my sleeping habit lately...
No more nap during day time...
And today is the second day I doesn’t have siesta...

Then the second step is do Pilates every morning...
Third step is sleep before 11pm... Everyday...
Wow... trying to make myself feeling great...

I’m a model... the model for a great life...
This is JK in da house!!!

time

Time was moving so fast...
From June when I left cimb... until now...
Almost 3 months... I was out of job...

The plan to learn forex and start to trade full time was on Sept...
Damn scary...
This is the time I need to stay focus...
Learn it... apply it... and earn the money...

Oh my god... I was freaking out... because I treat this as a job...
And I’m the owner of this company...
I'm giving myself half year time to prove that I can do it...
I want to be successful!!!

sunday - rain

Browsing my phone pictures last night...
Found out that I have lost something...
The smile...
The fake smile I always put on when I take a picture...

Times do change people...
I have change... change to smile only from within...
The real jk... the one and only...

Is cold here...
But it not as cold as your heart...

weird

Recently got to know that... one of my very good client in dell... is undertake by another guy... this is the third / fourth sales person handling this client...

Even thought I have left dell for 2 years...
The feeling is still weird...
Feeling like someone taking away my stuff...
Anyway... I understand that I have left this company and the client has nothing to do with me... but still weird...

Anyhow... I believe that I will get over it soon...

happy burn mood

Submitted my thesis today...
So nice... at least I have nothing to do with my college until I grad...

But... the weather today is killing me... the sun is so big... and I walk like for 5 mins... I have fever... now...
Gosh...

Will be out to baileys tonight... with some mag...
And the plan to learn the forex will start this coming sept...
Everything seems on the plan...

Many luck to me...

Never try Never know

I still have the gut to do this
"Never try never know"
Maybe I'm young... ya pretty young...
I want to do the things that I want...
I still have the time to learn, to apply, and to make it happen...
BECAUSE I'm YOUNG!!!

I don’t care who the hell you are... I will do it my way...
BACAUSE this is my life!!!

I want to live my life my way!!!
This is JK... on the block...

wakakaka...
the humble and cute 1...

i just need the answer...!!!!!!!

People around sometime annoy me...
For example my mum and some friends...
Always ask me back or answer me another things when I ask the question...

HELLO...
Everything needs to be fast... I pop out the question... just give me the damn answer... that’s all I need...

life

What is life?
Life is so fragile...

Giving up mood come back today...
I don’t know why?
Feeling want to walk away... from everything...
To some place that no one knows me...
And start it all over again...

I hate myself...
Hating everything that left for me...
I have nothing...
Just a body without soul...

What is the purpose of my life?
I’m searching... still searching...

Sometime... feeling going out will be good...
But... when I reach home is so empty...
The emptiness is killing...
I need something to fill it up///

sunday 16 aug 2009

A good day... even few nights of nightmare...
Had famous hokkien mee from the seven street...
And some other things...

Noon time... some wine... and a nap...
The wine is making me headache...

Very good mood until i saw the msn window... you sign in...
Mmm... have decided to delete you... maybe I just cant imagine that... it just a game...

Stupid me... as I should have knew it from the beginning...

i should have knew it

I should have knew it from the beginning...
Is just for fun...
Maybe I’m too serious... or maybe I’m the fool...

I’m going no where...
Still here...
Getting to know myself... better...
I’m learning now... to equip myself... better armor... so that I would not easily get hurt next time...

Time is killing me... these days... getting blank suddenly... after I finish my thesis... have been trying to plan my timetable... but the table seem to be blank @ this moment...

Moody... I think I need to get drunk...
Dizzy... feeling... uncomfortable ... tired...

I have u... from within my heart...
I hate myself for knowing u...

meh mood...

Collected my thesis today...
And I want to submit it... but the officer seem don’t want to have it now...
Asking me to submit around the due date...
Dang it...


Can’t log in to my facebook...
And this is some sort driving me crazy...

Today is boring...
I have nothing to do after I finish my thesis...
Want to learn something ... or meeting new people...

Dang dang dang dang dang it..............................
My mind… is closing down……

roti

roti eventually is my ex boss from dell...
Recently, understand that he is using me and sandy as an example to warn his current staff not to leave in a meeting...

More elaboration will be: he is saying the below-->
example 1 = Sandy that time she left... said that pressure... acne all over face... but she is back... this is bullshit...
Example 2 = me :) --> Jeff that time convert him to perm... and very the fast he resign... waste my effort... said that the new company offer more paid...
(They come back and the paid will be the same)

One thing to clarify is… if you come back to dell within the 1 year the paid will be the same... but more than one year... it will be different...

And my reaction to his comment is:
WTF... people is coming back is because of other things... a leader that not like YOU... and many other reasons...

I do thank him to convert me... but what the reason he converts me? Is because... I tender the letter... and he is asking me to stay... and offer me a perm position...and I left after 6 months perm... not the very fast as he said…

1st of all... the reason I left is... my paid does not increase... when I get convert... saying diploma is only worth that fucking price...
Secondly... I found out that someone who is also diploma get a better paid than me... and who is a newbie... and that is the reason I’m looking a new job...
And lastly... I do get a better paid @ the new company... additional RM 700 for the basic... and that why I left...

Trying to say a fair thing... is... I do not really care what he said… just
I’m writing this... is for... anyone who is still in dell... maybe can show to roti...
Telling him how and what is the reason behind...

Quote for today: when you are good... there will be lots of follower... when you are bad... maybe those who still haven’t found the solution... they follow you just for the time being...


p/s: next blog will be the bird @ dell...
adios...
muacksss

I'm a fool

WTF mood... in this wonderful Sunday...
Anyhow... I should have get over it...
Is just a stupid fling I had this year...

Will make sure that I will not fall into anyone until I know the person very well...
cheebye...

I wish I can yell @ some1 now... or maybe smack any1 face...

omg... in a terrible mood...
Is the time that I should learn... to have fun... no string attached... maybe...

I’m just a silly little boy...

Today’s plan... out @ noon to rent book... out to tambun @ night to have some crab...
ya... is crapssssssss .... All is crapsssssss... all the talking is just crapSSSSS... if you can’t make it... you better don’t make any promise...

Fuck you...

am i fat?

Met alil this wed...
Mmm... My face seems to getting bigger...
Until... she said that...

Start my weight losing program 2day...
And hopefully... can lose some inch on my face...

Eventually... when i gain weight... the face and the tummy is getting bigger...
Fuck... I just hope my butt can get bigger...

Anyway... cut my hair 2day... a new step... for the new beginning...
And losing the weight is the second step...

Adios...

love horoscope for Sagittarius

tak tau zun boh...
wakakaka
ada spotlight somemore... nanti jadi orang mia spotlight pula...


If you have been feeling like a wallflower lately, Sagittarius, today may be a good day for you to get noticed. If you are attached, do not be afraid to take charge a little in your love life. Taking the pressure off of your partner for once will be well received, and your rewards will be plentiful. If you are single, you may want to reserve some extra time in your schedule, as your phone is going to be busier than usual in the coming days. This is a period where the spotlight is on you, so put your best face forward, and don't disappoint your eager fans.

sick

Fall sick these days...
Might due to the haze or maybe some kind of flu...

Anyway... is getting better now...
Just feeling kinda dry... the mouth

Will finalize my thesis by this week...
And try to submit it up next week...

And the new journey begins...

I will miss the previous jk...
But the new 1 will better... I believe so...

Harry Potter and the half blood prince

watched it last week... with ah bia...
very excited before went it...
kinda disappoints by due to the film is short... and the story hv been cut into pieces...

anyway... i rate it 7 out of 10...
see the trailer below...

Canada's Next Top Model (Season 3)

hurray... the girl that i wanted to win is the new winner of this season CNTM...

awesome...

circus action season 4

yap... circus action season 4 hv started last week...
u guys can watch it @ youtube...

crazy in love with kid ... he is so cute...
i wish i can do the crazy stuff with them...

hell yeah... im crazy enough...

adios...

Nirvana - rape me (live version)

i like the husky voice... sexy

Millionaire

haha...
been to a forex class yesterday night...
i learnt something... just behave like the country Singapore.

short time frame | small target | and be consistent

this is really good.
last night... i found back... what i really want in my life...
is money...
omg... i cant believe i have lost the LOVE i had for money...

i wan to spend money for myself... then I need money $$$$ !!!

reading progress : chap 3 (secrets of the millionaire mind)

another happy day :P
blek

drama series

have been watching TVB drama series for the past few days...
a nice one...

A GREAT WAY TO CARE
仁心解码

talking bout people with mental problem... (like me)
and another main point is Fong Chung Sun is freaking hot in the series...
hahaha

I love Life

DEAD

die dying dead...

feeling want to die...
go to a mart... buy lots of panadol and take it one by one...
then sleep and never wake up again...

i really wish i can fade away when im asleep...
some sort easily get annoy by anything...
hate everything i see, hear, smell, touch...

but life still go on...
and 2mr will be another busy day...
fuck

hurray i can start distribute the questionnaire

kena flu now...
maybe someone is missing me...

completed my questionnaire design...
hope to distibute out by this week...
and then follow by the analysis of the data and submit the thesis...
yeah yeah yeah...

not feeling so miserable about M lately... maybe i knew that the "story" is so fake...
anyway... is a good thing.. time to move on to the next level of my life...

chiao

next door is doing the renovate

gosh...
someone pls kill me...
im going to faint sooner or later...

is just next to my room... why cant they finish it in one day...!!!!!!!!
cheebye

moving on from silly feeling

Officially looking for another person to share the new emerged JK.
haha
Have cried... for a liar… Anyway... is the past... I shall look forward instead of backward...

Will be amending my thesis again later.... so many things to change... gosh... I really want to finish it by this month... and start to look for job...

recently

WTF///
meh mood become bad mood...

It has been a long time I didn’t blog...
A few things have changed...
I quit my job... yeah... I did something that I wanted to do since last year...
Now doing my final thesis ... to be finish by month end...
My PC breaks down... and I bought my self Lenovo...
M and I... did not contact each other for two weeks.... it is the time to get over it...
I know u did not promise anything... just the stupid feeling need to get rid from me...

Anyway... will be officially going out to party next month...the time to get drunk...

weight issue

did not measure my weight for the past several week...
and something surprise me...
i lost 5 kg... now officially 65kg...

i dont know how i lost it...
anyway... it seem to be a good things... no more BIG tummy like sandy and KB>>> wakakkaa
and i can shake my body whenever i want...

....

im fucking annoy by the attitude... of some1...
feeling want to do something... mayb break some plate... throw away something...

gosh... im not in a good temper... now...
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!!

end of the world?!

Newspaper... word of mouth...
Solar storm shooting to mother earth by the BIG sun... in year 2012
Wow...
Just hoping it can happen in the near future... and the earth will blowing apart...
This is good... no more fucking stress... fucking job... fucking everything

Check the photo below...

Silly KB

Had dinner with KB last week Thursday...
Mmm... In the car... and the conversation as below:

KB: Jeff do you know this brand BABY MILO?
JK: why you ask?
KB: nola... my friend said this is a famous brand...
JK: hahahahhahaaha /// continue to laugh... non stop and called sandy to tell this joke...
KB: why laugh... siao ka
JK: this is the monkey shirt la... where... I had since my college time... N yrs ago...
KB: is it? Alor Setar now only has this brand in the mall... JJ said she want... (JJ = KB current gf (until when I tak tau la))
JK: funny... as I said before ALOR SETAR = KAMPUNG

KB cheers up my day... hahahahahaha

sunday

boring sunday...

mum is back from batam last night...

and i cooked for today lunch///

tiring... i just want to leave everything behind...

wake up @ 0700... and took a pic of morning moon... see below...
i'm good...

and the lunch

tears

haha... the last time I cry... is the day that my investment fail which cost me some money...
Anyway is the past tense...

Last night... the cry... is so freaking sudden...
Reach home around 1830... In my room... locks the door... turns on the pc...
And my tears... are dropping...
For... at least 1 minute?? suppose
Totally no idea... why cry...
Some reasons maybe...
Stress out...
Unhappy for the environment...
Sad with the current situation...
How... lost I am...

I have figured out why I don’t like this job...
Why should I serve this kind of dumb ass client...
ya... cheebye them saja...
Fuck la... kiong pu.... tulan saja...

Totally fed up with everything down here...
What is the life without happiness??

Gosh... I’m such a drama king...

Anyway... getting better now... after a long night sleep... from 2300 till 0730...
ya... a 8 hours sleep...
Last few days... I woke up @ 0500 in the morning...

@ the end... what I have learn is don’t compare...
Just be myself... the real jk...

April Fool...

Not like last time... when I was young...
This day will be the dramatic day where... where we enjoy with laughter…

Nothing special happen 2day... gets fooled by sister... in the morning...
Nothing much then...

Is a new month... April... 2009
Gosh... time is flying so freaking fast...
And I’m still doing the things... that I don’t like...
Me... Struggling...

Anyway... I will put on my smiley face and smile to another cheerful 2mr...

ANTM updates:
Cycle 12... Is getting more and more drama... see below the preview for this week episode...

FREE

hahha... yahoo is teaching us how to get free stuff @ this critical time...
some of the links is kinda useful…
check it out...
I downloaded some free mobile games...

http://green.yahoo.com/blog/the_conscious_consumer/53/how-to-find-free-stuff.html

ANTM updates:
Cycle 12 is on the air...
I not so into it anymore... those girls face and name... I can’t really remember...
Switching my modeling drama to make me a supermodel from bravo TV...
More nude scene... and more high fashion... check below the preshow photos... of the hot male and female models...



until then... good night...
chiao

I Kissed a Boy by Cobra Starship

nice 1...
and the tattoo is hot
enjoy :)

i need kiss kiss...

*Kiss on the Forehead ----"Forever you will be mine"

*Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm horny"

*Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"

*Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"

*Kiss on the Neck ---"We belong together"

*Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"

*Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "I want you"

*Holding Hands ---"We can learn to love each other"

*Slap on the Butt ---"That's mine"

*Playing with the Ear ---"I can't live without you"

*Holding on tight ---"Don't let go"

*Looking into each other's Eyes ---"Don't leave me"

*Playing with Hair on Head ---"Tell me you love me"

*Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"

*Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completely Comfortable with you

road

There will be a road for me...
I know...

Feeling kinda desperate these days...
No submission... and my name have been highlighted in the email...
Never have this kind of //compliment// before...
Totally freak out in the office...
And immediately bring out my charm and submit a case 2day... another for 2mr...
I know... my time is up...ya up... for something not good...

But I believe that... I’m the lucky 1... Like always...
There will be another better road for me to earn some cash...

Plan for another vaca if no longer working... then only start from a fresh new JK...
The cute 1...
The smart 1...
The hardworking 1...
The humble 1...
The 1 that learn from other / mistakes/ etc...


p/s: I just miss you... I need hugs and kisses...

close friend?

We are close friend now...
hahaha

ya... u are too scared to make any commitment...
Me too... the distance is way too far...
And u had your bad experience... me still young...

Me... I never have this feeling before...
Is new to me... and I’m start to liking it...

I’m childish... I know...
I’m chicken... Mmm... Some area maybe... other I’m not... (Do not need to list down)
I’m young... of course... way young than everyone here... the face only... but the mind is mature enough... wakakkaa

Cam chat with MD>>>
Remember the promise...

Hate you and miss you @ the same time...

Drunk and sleepiness is killing me...
Good night...

friend?!

As human we do need friend...
Lot of friends...
They are those people that we hang out... gossip bout everything... drink together... make fun of each other... etc etc...

Me... Of course I do have friends...
I believe u can categorized them by some way...

Those you met... talk and have no idea who they are...
Those you met... talk for some period... and no fate to continue as friend...
Those you met @ some point of period... and become good friend... then the connection fail once... both step into different world...

For me... I like to meet new people...
These few days...
I felt kind of weird...
Some of my friend is giving some impression to me... that I some how... don’t like it...

This friend... search into people details... then laughs@ it... and share it...
It makes me felt... geli... maybe... I’m too small in term of my heart... (I admit it) or maybe my gas is small...

I’m those kinds of people... where u talk to me bout your secret... or I accidentally jump into people p&c things... I will not share... because... this is their matter... not mine...
ya... I’m good... wakakka...

Another friend of mine... I have been categorized this friend as good buddy... I help this person to settle the issue... those drama things... advice being given... because... I do think this friend is good...
I even recommend this person job... whatever... I’m not here to ask for anything back... just to clarify the scenario 1st...
anyway... in a company we do have those email from HR about the vacancy available right now from time to time... and this very person... is giving me some excuses... the email is confidential... u send to me I send to them... bullshit...
I don’t believe you don’t know how to copy and paste those JD and contact details in an email and then send to me...

Gosh... is the economic right now that have changed my friends’ characteristic?

another friend... pretend master... this person make me felt scared... this friend never do anything to me... but... some how... we the third person... can see the things clearly... this person is trying to get one of my friend out from the work place... I see it this way... because... from the info of my friend who has left the work place...
Scary...

Another one... even cheat me money... Which this friend promises to return back... anyway... I ask this person can return my money mth by mth ... but...
No answer... I have msn, call and etc...
This friend delete / block me from the msn... remove me as friend in friendster...
Eventually... I took this experience for me to see things more clearly...
Maybe money can changed one people mind/ characteristic…

Of course... these are minor flaw... from my circle of friends...
I do lots of good friend... that care and support each other... giving advice... sharing little secret/...

haha... ya... I'm back from holiday... will update another post later tonight... if I have time...

Adios... muacksss

holiday // vaca

@ phuket now///
phone doesnt work here...
no network...
i thought the network will change automatic like i was in singapore...


anyway... good for me... no sms or phone call to disturb my vaca...


hot here... even though is rainning this night...
scare i will become an indian when im back...

learn to swim 2day...
kinda blur... hopefully i can swim when im back to penang/// wakakaka

plan to think about my future stuff...
but... still no idea...
is really good when i was away from all this mess
the job... the stress... the everything...


going to hv beer...
i need to get drunk/.././.

chiao

vaca - Phuket Thailand

will be away for vaca...
to Phuket...

not excited...
dont know why...
but nervous...

lost this day...
hopefully dietiker will cheer me up...
and maybe some advice as well...

im helpless...
no direction///
which road should i took?
how may road i have?
what kind of road is that?
i have no idea...

maybe this trip will help me to find myself...
the real JK...

sleepy...
full...
good night...

blur... + lost...

Again...
I was lost these days...
Lost in myself...

I still haven’t found the way that I want...
Give some clue le... pls

Will be away to Phuket this Sunday...
Not so excited actually... maybe still too soon to be excited…
Anyway... hope I will enjoy the time there and know myself better...

Happy Vday!!!

hehehe...

happy Vday...

alone @ home having cheesy thai seafood pizza with red wine...

a bit blur now...

wishing everyone happy Vday...

M... mau kena sudah... semalam missing in action...

Happy Vday... i need to lay down... pening... tata

blur... lost

Again... I’m lost...
I’m so so free.... very free...
I have no appointment... no sales...
Doing nothing everyday...

morning reach office... open pc check the share market, check the currency rate, check the current economic, politics, and corporate news...
Then wait for the lunch... gosh.... I’m totally screwed up...

Booked the ticket to Phuket... for the beginning of March...
Need to clear up my mind over there and rest ... and start again when I’m back to Penang...
Hopefully ... by then I will know what i really want in my life...

Have china shark fin as supper... wakakaka (char mee hoon with lobak) yummy...
2mr meeting in the morning... then lunch @ home... then go bayan lepas meet developer...
...

Valentine is coming... and I’m alone... hate it...
Always alone... anyway... will cook pasta and red wine for this special day...

Continue watch my NCIS... tata

Lie to Me

"The average person tells three lies in ten minutes of conversation"

New drama series "Lie to Me"
Talked bout lie...
The main character of this drama is the incredible hulk...
He can detect people who tell lie... and help to solve cases... police / politics etc

Nice show... impress me for the 1st episode...
Learn 1 thing from the 1st episode...
Fake smile will not have eye wrinkles...

M is going for operation 2mr morning @ 7am Swiss time...
Might give a call... to check on the situation...

And... 2mr start working again from these 11 days of holiday...
Hate it... anyway... will have taiwan as lunch 2mr noon time with sandy...

chiao...

Happy Bday!!!

2day is "ren ri"
Meaning birthday for people...
Wishing everyone happy bday!!!

Just back from dinner @ Taiwan gu zhao wei...
Nice... love the pork chop rice... incredible...
Have a good time there with relatives...

M is going to have operation this coming wed...
Hoping everything will be okay...
I really miss u///

still hv 2 days of holiday left...
trying my best to relax and relax///

continue watch my korean version of meteor garden... nice... and funny...
until then good nite :P

tired and sleepy

The 5th day of CNY...
Tired....
Really tired...
Sleep late this day...
Then tokai Kedah to visit foster parent... took me 3 hours driving...
congrat me... 1st time drove out Penang state/// hahaha
And the most important thing is... I did not lost on the road... wakakaka

Just wake up from nap... and now waiting to be serve lunch...

Until then... adios :P


top model updates: ANTM cycle 12 Premieres February 25!
see the link bout the models...
http://www.cwtv.com/shows/americas-next-top-model12/cast

Happy Chinese New Year 2009 !!!

phew... tired day...
last night gambling @ home till midnight...
wake up @ 0700...
out to granma house @ 1100
then granuncle house @ tanjung bungah @ 1230
then another granuncle house @ 1330 till 1530
then granaunty house till 1630
reach home @ 1720
slept till 1830
dinner @ 1900
supper @ 2230 McD

I'm taking leave till 3rd Feb... yeah yeah yeah...
is time for me to rest...

I'm searching for the hotels for my vacation @ Phuket... on March
Katong beach... any recommendation?

until then... GONG XI FATT CHAI :)
win more 4 me...
and lucky me... for this brand new year...

time / punctual / on time

This post is meant for KB... the late comer / later? / pang saier? /wateva
Who always late and NOT on time on the appointment/// or any promise he made to come @ this point of time...

Scenario 1
Time: today
1st of all... he called by ask me to help to buy the beauty product... ok/// @ 12pm
Me... ask him to take the product himself... and pay there @ any time before 530pm... @ 130pm
Called KB @ 5pm/// asking why he hvnt go and take... he said cant make it... will come to me @ 830pm to take things...

Me... help to paid... and the product @ my home... waiting him...to collect/// @ 830pm///
Wait wait till 930... He ring me... and I DID NOT PICK UP>>> cheebye… so tua pai/// … I’m the TUA PAI here… don’t ever try to change my title

This is the N times happen between me and fellow frens...

Scenario 2
Time: I forgot dy...
Gurney outing... HP and me waiting @ my place for him to fetch us...
Confirm time @ 7pm/// from my house///

HP called him @ 630pm off from office asking him to come out as well... everything is fine...
Guess/// what time he reached?? 750pm/// reason: i went to wash clothes then pang sai...

By the way, pang sai this reason... he has been using for thousand of times... don’t believe? Ask HP and Sandy...

Anyway... the product still here... and I'm not going to call him anymore...
Because... I DONT LIKE TO WAIT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can forgive people... who are late less than 15 mins... but this kind of people... who is very often late more than 30 mins... just only one word for them... FUCK OFF

p/s: KB is an outside salesperson... so the time is very the flexible...!!!

hungry

Feeling hungry lately...
Hungry for food...
Has been 7 days in a row... Quaker oats as bfast and dinner...
The weight things... still between 69 and 70 kg...
But the rounds face issue... Mmmm... Still have room to improve...

Cam chat with M last night...
Have operation this coming Friday... gosh... I'm so worry...
M said another bar of chocolate is coming soon...
ya... just wish everything will be ok...

Update on KB love life: still in progress of chasing Jin... /// saw his msn personal msg some sort like this "Beng and Jin forever" can't really remember... puke when I saw this...

sales update: yeah... 1st case submitted 2day... at least have something to show... I’m on the chopping board now... will kill myself before kena chop...

ANTM cycle 12... Is coming very soon... will post the preview here... watch it out!!!

QB mall later... chiao...

down down the hill with my mood

suckssssssssss
No a good day for me...
Totally in the pressure now... NO SALES...
Gosh... I can’t blame myself actually, the sales are affected by the economic situation now...
And I’m drowning and keep on drowning... I can’t save myself from the mess... dang it>>>

I don’t like this feeling... like a loser... I'm NOT>>>
I'M a FIGHTER!!! I don’t really like this job... meeting those people... one by one more ugly/// I mean the behavior... from customers, developers, solicitors till agents... they are suckssssss
Gosh... one kind of rice feed thousand types of people... from the Chinese quote...

I’m a brave person... I will still keep holding on...
\\\Till the last breath...

I don't know whether my mood is affected by my diet... what I have as dinner... see below: Quaker oats meal as dinner... I love it actually... just I’m very hungry...
wanna sleep dy ciao

MILK

Watched Milk yesterday...

One word "awesome"...

This movie is some sort of documentary film of Harvey Milk///

Basically what attract me is James Franco is in the film... and then I watch it and me like the overall movie... touching and eyes full with tears when they win the election... recommended to u guys :)

**** James Franco ****

work...

Start working since 5th Jan 2009...
Not in a good mood... at all...
Maybe rest too long already...
A lot of people are leaving the company... I think at least has 8 or 9 staff...
Believe some of them is forced resign and some is their decision...
kinda blur now... business is totally not doing good... quota has been reduced by RM250k... But still freaking high... dang it...

The project things... are not doing well... the special haven’t come out yet... due to the boss was away for the Christmas and New Year holiday... I'M WAITING FOR THE RATE!!!

Watched Transporter 3 few days back... awesome... cool... and the main character is freaking HOT
A must watch movie... I'm totally into shaved guy right now... hahaha

In good mood now... received M mail with chocolate inside... from Switzerland... nice... will try it later 2night... until then... chiao

Genting Trip

As promise below is some of the pictures from Genting trip... I went to on Nov 22...
...Sandy can’t make it... due to food poisoning...
Too bad...

Anyway... I went with HP and KB...
Nice and relaxing trip...
Where we just walk around... enjoy the environment... shop... stop... and eat...
This trip... let me forget bout work, stress and everything...
But one thing... that i not happy about is KKB's snoring sound... so loud... so horrible... like a cow hit by a train!!! Or a dinosaur is so hungry for food!!! I try to shut the noise by moving on the bed...
The noise stop like 7 seconds and start again... at the end I need to use tissue to stuck in my ears... horrible!!!
Want to smack his big face...
HP, KB and their Luo Mai Kai (cantonese)

Happy New Year 2009

Brand new year of 2009!!!
Brand new JK for 2009!!!
Brand new me more to come!!!

Spend the new year eve with family members... pizza, wine and movie @ home...
Quite nice... eventually plan to go out for the fireworks... but rain and traffic jam... change my mind...

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!
Wishing everyone will be healthy and wealthy for this special year.

Wishing the world will be peaceful and full with big heart. winks winks

HAPPY 2009!